❤ i guess we both need time

kay, eldds was okay.
gerard filmed us rehearsing & we laughed @ ourselves :D
we pratically looked & sounded weird to ourselves.
it's true kay.
you may try video-ing yourself & take a look.

;
i fell asleep yesterday & i forgotten to take out my contact lens.
now, my eyes are super red.
& cos of this, i can't go out with maggie dar :(
then my mother told me that it was alright.
sigh,forget it.
things are just not right.

ignore the below&don't try to read.
respect me kay.

iguesswebothreallyneedtime.
iappreciateverysinglethingthatyou'vedone.
iknowyoucare.
ireallyfeelyourcareandconcern.
andbecauseofthisidontwantyoutofeelguiltybecauseofthefacthateveryonetellsyoui'mhurt.
whichisalsowhyirathertellyoui'mnothurt.
ireallyfeelthatyou'reverymatured.
verydifferentfromwhatithoughtyouwere.
andalsobecauseofthisiknewhatodo.
thatcare&concernmademegrowup.
iknowyoudon'twishtoseemesad.
iknowyouwantmetobehappy.
iunderstandthedilemmathatyou'rein.
idontwannamakethingsdifficultforyou.
fromthetimeyoustartedcoming&tellmesorry.
ireallyfeltouched.
ifeelthatyou'vegrownup.
seriouslymuchmorematuredthenlastyear.
fromthisi'vegrownuptoo.
i'lllearntogiveup,
ireallywill.
ihopeyou'llbehappy.
cosireallywantyoutobehappy.
don'tbeworriedforme.
cosi'llbefine.
i'llbestrong
justletmesaythisonelastime
ireallyloveyou.

*
towhoeverwho'sreadingthis&invadingmyprivacy.
fuck.
ireallymeanfuck.
getalife.

I'll face everything with a smile :D