Fitting in, this was discussed during training today. some people have this tendancy to change themselves, to bear with the humiliation, to bear with the jokes and teases just to fit in, just because they didn't want to be left out. even if their friends or cliques laugh at them because of something, they pretend not to mind because they want the attention, they want to fit in. but sometimes i do wonder, why do people try so hard to fit in? if you try so hard, one day you might just find out that fitting in is tiring, you're no longer the real you. and your friends only love the " fitted-in " you, but not the real you. okay this is hard to explain.
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yeah so i thought alot 'bout the past (still the present) today. how she treated me, how she was biased against me, how she ignored me and stuff. i didn't blow up, i didn't throw tantrums at her, purely because i still respect her as an elderly. though i'm only a kid in her eyes, but hey, i have feelings too and i'm sensitive, i know that she dislikes me, i can feel it and i know it solely through her actions. from those times when i addressed her and she ignored me , even after i attempted the second time, she ignored me still. from those stares, looks and glares, i know she dislikes me, i know it. but what's worse is, she doesn't wanna say it out. don't adults love to teach us to be honest?
oh so you wanna say that this is a white lie, you don't want me to get hurt, so you didn't tell me? crap. a white lie is also a lie, it is still considered a lie. don't try to act as though you don't wanna hurt me, but your actions do hurt me. and i am so not a bimbo. definition of a bimbo? attractive but brainless. firstly, i'm not attractive, and secondly, i am not brainless! so i don't fit the definition of the word, bimbo. you think i don't feel hurt when you called me a bimbo? so you can't call other students bimbos, but you can call me that? why is this so huh? i am NOT brainless, i have brains, i do study, I ANSWER YOUR QUESTIONS DURING LESSONS, if it wasn't for some of us answering your questions, you'd be like you're talking to the wall. no matter how hard i try to not show you my displeasure, no matter how polite i try to be, you're still like that. i don't force you to like me, i don't bother if you hate me, i seriously don't bother, 'cause you're not at all important to me, but can't you just be honest? if you don't like me, say it then! i'm no longer bothering about facts like, hey teachers reads their students' blogs, i don't care anymore. i am not taken for granted, i am not a bimbo, i am not brainless, i am a human like you are, i have brains and i have feelings. if you wanna scold me, save it. and even if you really scolded me, i don't bother 'cause i think i've done nothing wrong. i've respected you, i didn't mention your name, i didn't say it in your face, i only blogged it out. yeah so if you dislike me, tell me, tell me where the heck did i offend you. here, get this clear, I DISLIKE YOU.
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